Ugh. I’m suppose to be working on a science paper. However, I have time to do that later, and I have not written here in a while, so why not procrastinate?
I am a little more than halfway done with my bachelor’s degree. I am estimating my graduation, if everything goes as planned, to be the spring of 2020. Which I know sounds so far away. But that’s me going halftime, taking two classes a term, and also me taking (hopefully) next summer off. I’m due for a summer off. And apparently we can do that now and still work. See as a work-study I have to study to be allowed to work. But they realized that sometimes we need a break from the study part. So as long as we have studied the previous fall and winter terms, we’re allowed to take the summer off. I would have done that this summer but I didn’t know about it in time.
Fall term has officially started. I’m in week one of it. I’m taking a general science class that is more focused on critical thinking and analysis than it is on a specific field. But that’s ok. We live in a world of global warming deniers and this is a business school. So basically I took the science class that was both offered and required. It’s a 12 week class (compared to the usual 6 weeks) and then I have a 6 weeks management course. I don’t remember the specifics of the management course. I’d look it up but I’m about 11 weeks away from giving a crap. It’s an elective that seemed important to me at the time. So I’m sure I’ll benefit from it.
Still doing the work-study for the mathematics department gig. I basically plan to do this until either my boss gets sick of me or I graduate. Hopefully the graduation happens first. Then I’ll do a work-study, or whatever the equivalent is for a grad student, gig for OSU or wherever I end up. Hopefully OSU. Anyway, work is going well enough. I just had a performance review. My first of many. 18 months, almost, into the job. But eh. Anyway, there were no surprises. I knew going into it where I need to improve and we agreed on everything. So we discussed how I can do better in some areas and that was that. I’ll get another review in 30 days or so. I think. At least that seems to be the plan.
Everyone is happy and healthy. Funny story, actually. Sambam had a couple of major cavities in two of her molars, and at that size and at her age, they don’t fill them, they put crowns on them. Something medical jargon here about the crown lasting longer and they’re just baby teeth. Seemed weird to me but I got a second opinion just to be sure. (We had a bad experience with a dentist when Thomas was this age. The dentist did unnecessary work for the insurance money and was later the recipient of a class action lawsuit. So like we’re a little paranoid.) Anyway, it’s legit so we took her to get her crowns this past Thursday. They put her on laughing gas to calm her before using the needle to numb her. And I’m telling you, my daughter was so calm and high (as a kite) she didn’t even notice the needle. I sure did though and I hurt for her. Anyway she got the crowns and was like the number one best patient of the day, everyone agreed. And I was super proud of her. She’s a good kid.
They all started school this past Wednesday. Sammy is in first grade and loving it. Lucas is in fourth and start intermediate school, which means he now has 8 periods, or so, and is switching classrooms. He was nervous at first, but seems to have taken to it like a duck to water. Thomas is in eighth grade and in his last year of middle school. He’s growing up. I’d say he’s as tall as me, but if I’m being truthful I think at some point in the past month he’s officially passed me. And I’m not short. I’m about average height, but he’s going to be tall. Sammy turns 6 in a couple of weeks. She’s maturing into quite the big kid. She’s also turning into quite the artist.
So most of her birthday presents this year are various art supplies. The grocery store sells sketchbooks for like $2.50. Plus colored pencils and of course huge boxes of crayons. Then she is also getting coloring books just because. Coloring is fun yo! Anyway, the whole family is in on it together to supply her with all her art needs. Plus a few other odds and ends. But I think she’ll be happy with her haul this year.
I have more friendship in my life right now than I’ve had, well, ever. It’s mostly online, but I’m ok with that. I do need someone local to meet for coffee or dinner once in a while but I’ll work up to that. In the meantime, I have so much online friendship that like, I don’t feel like there is anything missing. We’re all on Tumblr and it’s just this big group of us. You should come chat me up over there. I will warn that my feed is a constant stream of snakes and reptiles and fish. One posting automatically every hour. And then when I am on, it gets really political. Like really political. So like if you can’t stomach snakes or politics, maybe you shouldn’t join me on Tumblr. Anyway, here is the link.
I haven’t almost bled to death in a couple of months. So that’s a plus. And last we checked my hemoglobin was up to 12.7 which is in the normal range. The low-end of the normal range, so I’m still on the iron supplements, but I’m not like as anemic as hell as I was even a month ago. Anyway, I’m just going to keep up with the iron and hopefully I’ll stop almost bleeding to death, and things will be good, yeah?
Mental health wise I’m ok. Mostly just really tired. I could have used this summer off from school. Really really. But it’ll be good in the long run to keep pushing though. I’ll have a nice long break soon. 2 weeks for Christmas and then I think I can schedule another 6 weeks on top of that during winter term if I take 2 6 week classes and neither of them start in the beginning of the term. Terms are 18 weeks long, so this is doable. I just have to make it until then. Also, that two weeks off for Christmas, will also be two weeks off from work, because the whole university shuts down. So like, I’m counting the days.
I have not had any medication changes lately, but it’s been awhile since I’ve listed my meds, so why don’t I do that now? In no particular order, and everything I take:
- Gabapentin 900mg for fibromyalgia.
- Ativan 1mg for anxiety – up to twice a day, but usually only once
- Vitamin D3 2000mg because I get no sun ever
- Ferrous Sulfate 650mg this is the iron
- Protonix DR 40mg this is a super antacid that helps prevent my stomach from eating itself since I keep nearly bleeding to death
- Geodon 100mg this is an antipsychotic I use off label for Borderline Personality Disorder. It isn’t for everyone but it can be very helpful for those of us with BPD to be on a medication like this. It helps with things like impulse control and angry outbursts. In general I just feel more in control of myself on this medication. However, a medication like this is not to be taken lightly. There are serious possible and likely side effects so really talk it over with you meds doctor and weigh out the pros and cons.
- Topimax 100mg for headaches mostly, but there is the added benefit of weight loss. Again talk a medication like this over with your doctor. There are better medications for headaches generally, but as I’m obese, I wanted something that would help with weight loss and I knew this one did so I asked for it by name.
- Fetzima 80mg this is my antidepressant. It’s a newer one and my insurance is not happy about it, but dudes I’ve been on them all and this is currently the one that works. It has the added advantage of a norepinephrine boost so like it helps with my energy levels. Which, between depression and fibro and anemia (these days), I need that boost.
And that’s everything. I take these all at once in the evenings. Which is not ideal but I’m horrible about remembering to take meds and this is the system that works for me. So this is what I do. My doctors know this about me a prescribe around it.
Also, on the subject of health, I have given up regular pepsi, and have switched to diet (coke). I’ve lost 20-30 pounds in doing so. I know it was the switch because that’s when I started losing weight. So yay? I have a long way to go and I’m working on it. Taking walks. Making healthier eating choices. Eating less in general. But I’ll get there. I’ll never be super skinny. It’s just not my body type and I’m on too many major psych meds that cause weight gain. But I want to be at a healthier weight, whatever that means for me. I’m also over all more interested in a healthier blood pressure, blood sugar level, and cholesterol level, than I am the actual shape of my body. Health over size.
That’s everything I can think of so I’m signing out. It’ll be awhile, I imagine, before I write again. Life has me pretty busy and since my mental health is stable, it’s pretty boring. Which is a good thing. I promise to try and touch base next month. I promise to try anyway. If I can write monthly, I think that’s a good goal. And of course, if anything interesting happens, I’ll write sooner. In the meantime, I leave you with this photograph of my daughter cracking up on laughing gas. She really is a doll baby.