So my mom made me paranoid. She said I’d pass the background check unless someone had stolen my identity and committed a crime. Thanks mom. When I shared this with Andy at work, he showed me how to do my own background check. The only thing that came up was a speeding ticket. Good to know.

I have orientation Tuesday or Thursday. Depends in when they get my background check back.

I’m kinda excited to start a new job. I’ve been promoted about as high as I can go in my current line of work and it’s not paying the bills. So moving on is good for me. It’s what needs to be done. I’m starting at the very bottom, but I can deal with that. It’s going to be boring. I was warned by my new boss that it’s boring. But I’ll survive. I’m stressing over it a bit. But I know I’ll do fine.

I’m not really looking forward to working two jobs. I’ll probably leave the camera store at some point. But only if I’m getting consistent hours at my new job. We’ll see. I won’t really know until I’m in the thick of it.

I am worried about my mental health. I don’t handle stress well. Which is why only working 3 days a week is good for me. Putting in 40-50 hours a week could about break me. I don’t really know. I’m currently very strong but I’m about to go off my meds to get pregnant. We’ll just have to see.

Yes, I still want to get pregnant. Pat and I are going to talk to my meds doctor together to form a plan. I’ll get off my meds, make sure I’m balanced enough and then start trying. I’m going to take 3-4 months to do this. I’m not in a huge rush. I’d rather take my time and do it right. Maybe 6 months. If I get pregnant in 3 months number 3 will share a birthday with Thomas. That kinda bugs me. Either way, within a year for sure. We’ll discuss it with my meds doctor and make a decision. I might also drag Pat to a therapy session with me. We’ll see.

Pat and I went to a nightclub last night. There were some people going that we hadn’t seen in a long time and we wanted to meet up with them. Pat and I spent most of our time there people watching. We sat back, out of the way but where we had a good view and gossiped about the people we saw. Pat is really REALLY good at reading people so it made for a fun night. We also visited with our friends of course. Pat even agreed to play a game of pool with me. I still suck. But luckily it wasn’t his best game either. He was too distracted and stressed out.

I really want to curl up and go to sleep. I didn’t get much last night because of going out. So I could use it now. But I’m doing laundry. So no sleep for Karen.

I’m going to go read blogs or something. Night.