So I’m having to do something that pains me. No matter how grounded the kids are, they always have access to their books. Reading is a right, not a privilege. But Luke is purposely destroying books to get our attention. All he has to do is ask for it and he has it, so this destroying books thing is crossing the line. So after his nap he is helping me gather up all his books in a laundry basket and they are being put in the basement. It breaks my heart. I, of all people, don’t believe in taking books away, but I don’t see how I have any other choice right now.

Speaking of books, I’m currently reading Get Me Out Of Here by Rachel Reiland. I think I made this same announcement a few months back but I stopped reading it about half way through. I just wasn’t in the mood to read anything. But right now I’m devouring books left and right so I made sure that book was in the “to read” pile. Once I’m done with it I’m going back to Percy Jackson. But I had to wait til the final book was available from the library. I pick it up tomorrow.

Anyway, if you read this site for any reason, go pick up that book. It is a true account of how a wonderful woman managed to overcome Borderline Personality Disorder. Get Me Out of Here is amazing and life changing.

So I’m working on getting myself on a sleep schedule. I started by aiming for 11pm to 7am. But what I’ve always said holds true. I simply need more than 8 hours of sleep. So I’m going to work towards 11pm to 8am. I’m a little off track thanks to a couple of later shifts at work. It’s kind of hard to aim for 11-8 if I work til 10:45. And working 6 long days in a row, made me overly tired, so I slept in on Wednesday. But I’m going to aim for an 11-8 today/tomorrow. If 11-8 doesn’t work I’ll be stuck with an 11-9, but that’s the absolute latest I can get up on days I work 10-6:30. I’m hoping the 11-8 works out. I can hit the snooze until 8:30. That’s fine by me.

Our fish are dying. We think it’s the sudden drastic change in temperature. We are trying to regulate things out but they are dropping off one by one. We don’t have any means of controlling the water temperature. It’s just at whatever the room temp is. Which has worked fine for the past few years but now suddenly, not so much. And I don’t think it’s that they are just getting too old. It’s our second and third generation of mollies that are dying. Momma and Papa are doing just fine. So is the stubborn Zebra who is the oldest fish in the tank.

I’m kinda really excited for this current 4 days off of work. I have all kinds of things I want to do. Here soon, after we get Thomas from school, the 4 of us are going to this little playground mom found. It’s back out of the way and not overrun with people, so I think even Pat will be fine. At some point over the weekend (or now, I’m being told) we are going to Jesse’s house to play with his puppy and to look at some books he has left from his youth that he thinks Thomas might like. We are also taking a trip to the library. I have the final Percy Jackson book on hold for me and I want Thomas to pick out a few readers.

See the punk is suppose to read for 20 minutes every night. That’s what the first Percy Jackson book was for. But he wasn’t ready for it so we have to plan B it. Yes he has lots of books but he’s read them all a million times and I want him to read something new, with new words. I was at the library earlier this week and grabbed him 6 readers. He took interest in 1 of them. I’ll let you guess how many of the 6 he’s willing to read. Epic battles are epic.

I owe you guys a “living with BPD” post. I promise to get on that soon.

Alright the alarm sounded, it’s time to go get Thomas. So I must end this.