I’m nervous because Thomas’s party starts in like 30 minutes. Lots of people that will be here in my mom’s house fussing over my boys. My impulse is to throw my boys into the crowd and make a run for it. But I can’t. I have to be social and friendly. Good thing I like most everyone who will be here.

For those of you not playing the home game, people with BPD and crowds don’t always mix well. Something about being on best behavior while in an uncomfortable situation… Makes for a rough time.