I feel nauseous, gassy and shaky. I don’t know what is causing it. I’ve been felt this way for a couple weeks though. So maybe it is one of my meds recently upped or started. I’m wondering what Cymbalta will add to the mix!?!?!

Actually I feel pregnant but that’s improbable. As well as unwanted. I mean, we want more, but not now, not yet.

Things are going down at work that I really want to blog about. And it’s all public knowledge so I think it would be safe. Only it would make the company name easier to figure out and I’m paranoid about that.

Why do I think and write so much better with a pen in my hand?

I’d feel a lot more comfortable if I knew who in the company read this. It isn’t hard to find by Google search so they all have access. Facebook doesn’t help.

I feel like I’d feel so much better if I just threw up already. Or purged by different means.

Why do I feel a compulsion to take a pregnancy test just to be sure? Like we have money to waste. I know I’m not pregnant. I just can’t shake the feeling.

I think the problem is that part of me wants to be even though I can’t be and the timing is wrong and I’m on all these meds………. and…

Kids just finished dinner. We need a dog. It’s amazing how often those two thoughts go hand in hand.

We are all in whiny bitchy moods today. I think we all need to let out one big collective scream and then move on.

We were suppose to go to the park and library today. I’m not sure what happened to that plan. I’m not sure if the day would have been any better or worse with that plan acted out.

Luke won’t stop screaming. I want to scream. I’m never allowed to scream.

I should eat.