Early Days Intros

Survey on Sleep

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1. Has a relationship been effected by how one of you slept?
No. If I can tolerate Pat in my bed, I can tolerate anyone. He snores like a chain saw but I love him anyway. Then again, if Pat can tolerate my in bed, he can tolerate anyone.

2. What side of the bed do you sleep on?
The middle. No, really. With or without Pat in bed with me.

3. Do you sleep on your back, side, or stomach?
My stomach or my side.

4. Describe the bedding on your bed right now. How does it change with the seasons? Are you particular about your pillows or linens?
Um it is various shades of blue in a square quilt like pattern. I’m very picky about my pillows. I have two pillows I refuse to share. I also sleep wrapped uo burrito style in my comforter. Pat gets the top sheet or a blanket depending on how cold it is. Our besd is never made. Keep in mind that we are also big people so if we tried to sleep under conventional covers that we share, we’d both me cold.

5. When sleeping with someone, do you hog the bed, steal covers, or snore?
I hop the bed, steal the covers and snore.

6. What do you wear to bed? If it varies, explain.
I sleep in just my underwear other wise I get tangled in my clothing and start to feel closterphobic.

7. No matter how much you love someone, would you rather sleep alone?
I love Pat dearly but I love the nights he sleeps on the sofa. I value my own space and lots of it. I’m not a cuddler, I don’t like people breathing on me, and he snores. I also snore, sleep in the middle of the bed, and refuse to be toched when I sleep (I have been knows to hit when I sleep). I think he prefers the sofa too on most nights.

8. Tell us about a time when you awoke in bed, saw the person next to you and thought, “Oh, no…”
I’ve only shared a bed with 2 different people. So it isn’t like I’ve gone to a bar, gotten drunk and woke the next morning with regrets.

9. Tell us about a time when you awoke thinking it was a different day than it was.
Um, never to my recollection. I’m actually scary good at knowing what day it is when I wake up, if I work, and what time I work. it comes for being OCD and paranoid.

Things I Hate

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In no certain order.

Bananas
When I was in 5th grade I ate 3 bananas in one sitting. Within the hours I was writhing in pain. Turns out I was severely constipated and the bananas were just the final straw. But I haven’t been able to eat a banana or anything banana related since. The only exception is banana bread. What can I say, that is good stuff.

Body Fluids
I have a down right phobia of body fluids. Everything from spit to cum (hey, no one said this list is pg rated). There are no exceptions to the rule.

Being Needed
It drives me crazy how needy my kids are. I’m not proud of it, but I can’t handle it. Part of me can’t wait til they are teenagers and then I can make demands of their attention. The rest of me realizes that will be a sad, sad day. Anyway, I love my kids, I just wish they would remove themselves from up my ass.

Messes
My OCD can’t handle the disorder that comes with them.

Games
No not the games like monopoly and World of Warcraft. I mean the deceptive games people play. If you want something, say it, go for it, do it, whatever. Games just breed drama, and I have enough drama in my life. What’s worse is being dragged into a game between to people who aren’t me.

Geodon
Don’t get me wrong, I love myself on it. It’s a good med, but I can’t stand that my body is addicted to it. I miss one dose and I feel like death warmed over. It also knocks me the fuck out. Which is sorta good because it helps me sleep. But I have no say in when I sleep. I take it and within a couple of hours I’m a zombie. I can’t just wait to take it at bedtime because it has to be taken with a meal or it doesn’t work, at all. For those of you playing the home game Geodon is my anti-psychotic. One I’m on by choice. But that doesn’t mean I have to fully enjoy it.

BPD
Uh, dur?

Walmart
I’m one of those people. What can I say, I’ve heard bad things about the policies in regards to employees and I don’t like it. I actually semi-studied walmart in a business class I took for school. So I even know a little bit of what I’m talking about. Verses just following, or not following, the masses.

Milk
What can I say, I’m lactose intolerant. I still eat ice cream though. It’s a whole risk verses benefit. In other words, the benefit of ice cream aka the “ohmygodyummy” is worth the risk of living in the bathroom for the next hour.

Teenagers
This is the closest I get to hating specific people. But teenagers are obnoxious, messy, game playing, drama magnets.

I think that’s enough for now.

I Got Tagged In Facebook With This

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***********FOODOLOGY******

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1. What is your salad dressing of choice?
Ranch or House Italian

2. What is your favorite sit-down restaurant?
I don’t really have one. I never get to eat at them.

3. What food could you eat every day for two weeks and not get sick of?
noodles

4. What are your pizza toppings of choice?
mushrooms, black olives, onions

5. What do you like to put on your toast?
I’m not really into toast, but butter if I must

***********TECHNOLOGY***************

1. How many televisions are in your house?
3

2.the color of your cell phone?
black with red detail

3. How long would it take you to look up who invented the Rubber Band?
wiki would have the answer so only a moment or two

4. Have any idea how many Megahertz your computer has?
not off the top of my head. I know how to look it up though. And if I cared, I would.
***************BIOLOGY******************

1. Are you right-handed or left-handed?
right

2. Have you ever had anything removed from your body?
warts when I was younger. Oh, and half my cervix

3. What is the last heavy item you lifted?
paper magazine

4. Have you ever been knocked unconscious?
No

************BULLCRAPOLOGY**************

1. If it were possible, would you want to know the day you were going to die?
No, I’d spend too much time counting down to and dreading that day to really live each day to it’s fullest.

2. If you could change your name, what would you change it to?
no idea

3. Would you drink an entire bottle of hot sauce for $1000?
Show me the money and bring me the hot sauce.

************DUMBOLOGY******************,

1. How many pairs of flip flops do you own?
2 and I JUST bought them. It was a first for me.

2. Last time you had a run-in with the cops?
my accident a couple weeks ago

3. Last person you talked to?
Pat and Jesse

4. Last person you hugged?
Pat

**************FAVORITOLOGY****************

1. Season?
fall

2. Holiday
halloween

3. Day of the week?
Friday

4. Month?
October

***********CURRENTOLOGY*****************

1. Missing someone?
always

2. Mood?
too tired to have one

3. What are you listening to
fish tank and the hum of 2 computers

4. Watching
the computer screen

***************RANDOMOLOGY*****************

1. First place you went this morning
Luke’s room to get the screaming awake baby

2. What’s the last movie you saw?
The last hour of tomb raider

3. Do you smile often?
I don’t honestly know

4. Sleeping Alone Tonight?
Yeah, Pat crashed on the sofa for whatever reason.

***************OTHER-OLOGY*****************

1. Do you always answer your phone?
no

2. It’s four in the morning and you get a text message, who is it?
Pat

3. If you could change your eye color what would it be?
I love my eye color

4. Do you own a digital camera?
Couple

5. Have you ever had a pet fish?
Have them now. I don’t view them as pets. They are living decoration that need fed.

6. Favorite Christmas song(s)?
ewwww

7. What’s on your wish list for your birthday?
I need an address book. I think I’m going to buy one with this paycheck though.

8. Can you do push ups?
Yeah isnt that what the put in bras <— good one Brenda 9. Can you do a chin up? No 10. Does the future make you more nervous or excited? Both 11. Do you have any saved texts? No 12. Ever been in a car wreck? not wreck, just fender benders 13. Do you have an accent? Everyone has an accent to someone else. 14. What is the last song to make you cry? Songs don’t tend to make me cry. 15. Plans tonight? nope 16. Have you ever felt like you hit rock bottom? yep 17. Name 3 things you bought yesterday. part stuff: cups, plates, napkins 18. Have you ever been given roses? yes 19. Current worry? well, I’m wide awake at 3 Am after ony 7 hours sleep… will I get back to sleep>? If not will I be able to function tomorrow? Speaking of functioning tomorrow, will I be able to get my maintenance done? If not, will Zach be angry with me? Will I find my head band in order to keep my hair out of my face tomorrow? Since I’m already planning to wear it, does that mean I’ll talk myself out of taking a shower when my ass is dragging hear in 4-5 hours? Do I need to continue?

20. Current hate right now?
Hate is a waste of energy

21. Met someone who changed your life?
yes

22. How will you bring in the New Year?
By sleeping through it

23. What song represents you?
crazy bitch

24. Name three people who might complete this.
Jennifer, my mom in the comments becase tag you’re it, and I dunno

25. Would you go back in time if you were given the chance?
No, messing with time is scary shit. I wouldn’t want to undo my kids by accident

27. Do you have any tattoos/piercing?
yes I have my ears pierced

28. Will you be in a relationship 4 months from now?
yes

29. Does anyone love you?
yes

30. Ever had someone sing to you?
yes

31. When did you last cry?
drive home from the drug store because my Geodon still hadn’t been called in and I only had one dosae left. I withdrawl really bad off of it with only 1 missed dose.

32. Do you like to cuddle?
not often… I have personal space issues

33. Have you held hands with anyone today?
nope

34. What kind of music did you listen to in elementary school?
oldies

35. Are most of the friends in your life new or old?
new

36. Do you like pulpy orange juice?
it’s the only kind I’ll drink

37. Do you believe angels walk among us?
no

I’ve Come to Realize

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1. I’ve come to realize that my chest-size. . .
Is only going up.

2. I’ve come to realize that my job. . .
is what it is. I’m going to get bored but I get bored with everything.

3. I’ve come to realize that when I’m driving. . .
is when I’m most likely to have “them” visit me.

4. I’ve come to realize that I need. . .
to chill the fuck out.

5. I’ve come that realize that I have lost. . .
my ability to go without meds.

6. I’ve come to realize that I hate it when. . .
I lose interest in things.

7. I’ve come to realize that if I’m drunk. . .
I’m migraine free.

8. I’ve come to realize that money…
truly is the root of all evil.

9. I’ve come to realize that certain people. . .
are just never going to understand me and I have no choice but to be ok with that.

10. I’ve come to realize that I’ll always. . .
be emotional.

11. I’ve come to realize that my sibling(s). . .
are no better than I am no matter how much she would like to pretend otherwise.

12. I’ve come to realize that my mom…
is more open minded than I give her credit for.

13. I’ve come to realize that my cell phone. . .
is starting to look abused. Which is why me owning an expensive one would be stupid.

14. I’ve come to realize that when I woke up this morning. . .
I hurt way too much which is why I’m glad Chris thought he was working.

15. I’ve come to realize that last night before I went to sleep. . .
I didn’t hurt nearly as bad as I thought I did.

16. I’ve come to realize that right now I am thinking. . .
I’m one track minded, at the moment, on my sunburn which HURTS.

17. I’ve come to realize that my dad. . .
needs more help than he’s willing to admit to.

18. I’ve come to realize that when I get on Facebook. . .
I’m really really bored.

19. I’ve come to realize that today. . .
is taking forever.

20. I’ve come to realize that tonight. . .
may never come.

21. I’ve come to realize that tomorrow. . .
I’ll hopefully be over the worst of the sun burn, as long as I treat it good, today.

22. I’ve come to realize that I really want to. . .
eat something. I’m hungry.

23. I’ve come to realize that the person mostly likely to repost this is. . .
probably no one

24. I’ve come to realize that life. . .
just as Forest Gump said. You never really do know what you’re going to get.

25. I’ve come to realize that this weekend. . .
is just another weekend.

26. I’ve realized the best music to listen to when I am upset. . .
has a hard beat and can be blasted.

27. I’ve come to realize that my friends. . .
are the ones willing to visit me when I’m at my worst.

28. I’ve come to realize that this year. . .
is the best I’ve had in terms of getting the proper medication in me.

29. I’ve come to realize that my exes. . .
aren’t worth finishing this senten…

30. I’ve come to realize that maybe I should. . .
kiss my baby’s poor sunburned and blistered nose.

Questions and Answers

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1. When you close a door, do you close it quick and just let it slam or do you hold the knob and slowly shut it tight?
I either never close doors or I slam them. No in between.

2.Train A is moving at 60 miles an hour. Train B is moving at 22 miles an hour. They will pass each other at X time. Now what color shoes are you wearing when train A derails?
Black

3. What if M&M’s grew on trees? What color M&M tree would you have?
Blue

4. How many petals on a flower does it take to make it the perfect bloom?
42, because it’s the answer to everything.

5. I took you to spend $421.67 on you, what did we spend that money on?
My education. That would cover a class, maybe.

6. If you were a squash, what type of squash would you be?
I’d be the kind you use for decoration? I dunno. Squash is not my area of expertise.
7. Have you ever gotten a wrong number call and ended up talking to the person for longer than 5 minutes?
Nope. You’re lucky if I talk to you for more than 5 minutes on the phone even if I do know you.

8. Why haven’t you joined Berleen & Kimber at Insanity Cafe yet? Do we stink?
Who and where what?

9. Shampoo bottles say lather, rinse, repeat… do you?
Nope, they say that so you use it up faster. You hair actually need some of it’s natural oils to be strong. Why strip them all away?

10. It’s July, the year is half over. Do you see it as “whew that part is over” or best is yet to come?
Definitely “Whew that part is over”

11. Why do you do the Thursday Thunks meme?
I dunno. I’m home. I’m bored. I havn’t answered these exact questions before.

Fears

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Stolen from Jennifer.

If you get more than 30, get some counseling.
If you get more than 20, you’re paranoid.
If you get 11-20, you are normal.
If you get 10 or less, you’re fearless.

I fear …

[ ] black people
[ ] the dark
[ ] staying single forever
[ ] being a parent
[x] being myself in front of others
[ ] open spaces
[x] closed spaces
[x] heights
[ ] dogs
[ ] birds
[ ] fish
[x] spiders
[ ] flowers or other plants
Total so far: 4

[x] being touched
[x] fire
[] deep deep water
[x] snakes
[ ] silk
[ ] the ocean
[x] failure
[ ] success
[ ] thunder/lightning
[ ] frogs/toads
[ ] my boyfriends/girlfriends dad
[ ] my boyfriends/girlfriends mom
[ ] rats
[x] jumping from high places
[ ] snow
Total so far: 9

[ ] rain
[ ] wind
[x] crossing hanging bridges
[ ] death
[ ] heaven
[x] being robbed/mugged
[x] falling off a cliff
[] clowns
[ ] dolls
[ x] large crowds of people
[ ] men
[ ] women
[x] having great responsibilities
[ ] doctors
[x ] tornadoes
Total so far: 15

[x ] hurricanes
[ x] incurable diseases
[x] sharks
[ ] Friday the 13th
[ ] scary movies
[x] poverty
[ ] Halloween
[ ] school
[ ] trains
[ ] odd numbers
[ ] even numbers
[ ] being alone
[ x] becoming blind
[ ] becoming deaf
[x] growing up, old
Total so far: 21

[] creepy noises in the night
[x] not accomplishing my dreams/goals
[] needles
[ ] blood

Grand Total: 22

According to this: I’m paranoid
According to me: Fuckin’ Duh