(Hah! Bet you didn’t expect me back so soon!)
I’ve developed some nervous ticks. Some twitches and shakes. I’m not entirely sure what that’s about.
I’m guessing it’s mostly me decompressing from what has been the most stressful semester ever.
Like before now, during the term, I was so stressed and under pressure that every molecule of my body was compacted together and afraid to move for fear of fracture.
Now that I can breathe easy again… After 15 weeks of being held together so tight, I’m now shaky. It’s like all that pressure disappeared at once and there is nothing left to stabilize me so I vibrate.
Mentally I’m stable. Tired. Weary. But well.
Just have a slight shiver of vibration to me.
So. Wow. It’s been a long minute since I last wrote.
All I can really say to my defense is that my idea of thinking 2 maths classes at once would be an easy return to school… Haha. Ha. ha. No.
I forgot the sheer workload in a single math class much less two at once.
But I survived! Even finals week! With my 4.0 intact.
God, I’m tired though. The kind of tired that a nap just can’t fix. It’s like straight through to my core.
But I’ll recover. Just in time for next term. I’m actually going full-time next term, with 3 classes, but they are only 6 weeks each and none of them at the same time. It should be much lighter.
Also, I forgot how much I love to read. Or rather, I never doubted how much I love to read, but I sort of didn’t realize how much I missed it until term finished and I curled up with a book. To just sit there and read when you know there is nothing else in the world I need to be doing… It’d been awhile.
I’m rereading Game of Thrones. I hadn’t read them in a long while, years really, and I’d never read the 5th book so I’ve curled up with the first book and I’m going to try to read all 5 before I’m back in class.
Alright. I’ll try to update more, but I’m not really sure what there is to say. Life is quiet with no real drama. Other than the car breaking and then being gone with no replacement. I mean, my BIL who lives with us has a car, but I only really have access to it 2 days a week. And even then it’s shared. I’ve never not had a car. It’s getting old fast.