And if you do, please just don’t use it against me. I need to rant and this is the only ear I have. I no longer have a best friend. This is all I have. So just turn away, or read but keep it to yourself. Because I’m tired, and I’m stressed, and I just need to rant.
It is Friday night at 12:35. I just told you you were better off going to the bedroom because I was getting angrier by the minute, and in a huff you asked what you’d done now.
Let’s go back in time a few hours where you’d given me the last of your kick-starts so I’d have the fuel to get through the next few days, saying you wish there was more you could do.
Why is it you wish there was more you could do, because after trying to get an incomplete in this current class due to circumstances, I found out that wasn’t the option I thought it was and decided my best bet was to buckle down and get two weeks worth of work done in one weekend. Why two weeks worth? Because the second half of next week I will be in Iowa. Not on some much needed vacation but instead to put my very favorite uncle in the ground, not even a year after putting my aunt in the ground.
All this after months of on again, off again, of my sister and her failing liver in the hospital. I’m very glad we’re fairly certain I’m not going to lose my sister, I just wish we were more certain she wasn’t going to lose her liver.
And then tonight, I come home after spending 12 hours away, mush of which you had the house to yourself while I did 7 loads of laundry at my mom’s house trying to prepare for a trip I thought was going to be sooner in the week, wanting to be very certain you and the kids would have everything you could possibly need while I was away so I could pretend I wasn’t worried about you guys, and I come home to what I’m guessing to be about 4 loads of dishes. Which wouldn’t be so bad in itself if I didn’t open the dishwasher to find it still loaded with what I put in it over 48 hours ago. Real nice.
So before I leave town in less than a week I need to:
- Do all the laundry about 45 minutes away
- Make sure all the dishes are washed
- And try not to fail this damn class.
Yep I sure wish there was more you could do.
I just really hope my sister doesn’t lose her life, or even just her liver, while mom and I are gone.
Because September has been that big of an asshole.