I’m back to being ok. We got that loan from a friend so we are for the most part caught up on bills. Nothing is in danger of being shut off anyways. We’ll be the rest of the way caught up once I start getting paychecks from my new job. I wish I had gotten the new job even a month sooner, but there is nothing I can do about it. I applied for it within 24 hours of knowing it was out there. From that point on all I could do was wait the almost 2 weeks it took them to call me to set up an interview.
I’m still apprehensive about working two jobs. Going from 15 hours a week to 40 is a huge step. I’m more than doubling my hours work. Almost tripling depending on how many hours I’m actually given. Maybe they’ll only schedule me for 20 and I’ll be at 35. Who knows. I’m worrying about the unknown. My favorite thing to worry about.
I’m also kinda nervous about when I’ll sleep. If I’m working til midnight or 1am it’ll take me a couple hours to get my mind to shut down. Then if I’m up again at 8 to work at 10, that’s not a lot of sleep. I don’t function on too little sleep. I’m sure I’ll get it figured out. Hopefully I can sleep in on my days I don’t work in the morning. Hopefully Pat will be nice about letting me catch up on sleep. I’m not holding my breath, but we’ll see. He was good too me when I was working 2 jobs a few years back for a holiday season.
I’m also worried about how much time I’ll have with my kids. Between 2 jobs, and trying to get enough sleep to remain functional, I’m afraid it won’t be much. I feel really really sick over this. I’m not the most hands on mom in the world. But I do my best. I’m afraid I won’t have the time to make that good enough.
Really, I need to get to where I’m making enough money at the new job, that I can quit the old job. But that part breaks me heart. I’d be leaving friends and that’s really hard to do. But I’m intelligent enough to know it’s not paying the bills so I’ll have to do what I have to do. Paying bills and affording my family is my number one priority. Especially since we went our third baby.
There is always the worry of my earning too much money and Pat losing part of his SSI. But we’ll cross that bridge when we get to it, I guess. This will be fixed when we do have a third baby, anyways. I’m allowed to work more when we have more kids. His SSI won’t increase any, he’s already at his max.
While we’re on the subject of worries… I’m really worried this job will bore me to death. I mean seriously, 7 hours of running a cash register will do that to a person. I won’t be looking forward to going to work. That wears a person down. Especially someone who is fragile in the mental health department.
I think that’s enough worries for one post.