Went to the gym last night with mom. I had a lot of pent up energy come out as aggression so I called mom and asked her to take me to the gym with her. This is by no means a regular thing. I save this request for when I really need it because she has only so many guest visits allowed total. I don’t want to use them all up. Lasts night’s session was good to me. I was able to work out whatever was going on in my head and take it out on something that could handle it. I started on the bike, moved to weight lifting until my body felt like jelly, and then finished back on the bike.
After the gym we went back to her house to just kinda hang out. I didn’t really feel like going home and she welcomed the company. We didn’t do anything amazingly special. Just talked while she sorted through papers and tried on clothes. She’s lost a bunch of weight and is bit by bit starting to fit into her skinny clothes. I’m kinda jealous only I don’t have skinny clothes to fit into. Nor can I afford to buy any. So I guess I’m better off at my current weight. Which is good since my meds make it impossible for me to lose.
On a happier note mom is planning to buy me a bathing suit so i can take the kids swimming this summer. The only suit I have is from when I was pregnant with Luke and it’s not at all flattering to my figure. Not to mention my chest is too big for it. I found a really cute suit through land’s end and it comes in plus sizes. I just have to make up my mind between black, teal and purple. Though I’m pretty sure I’m going with the purple. Maybe teal but probably purple.
I’m really tired today. Mom had me out til just after midnight and Luke had me awake at 8:30. I was really tired yesterday too. I’m not sure why though. I’m still doing ok depression wise. I’ve been super cranky the past 2 days but not depressed.
I’m starting to look into lenses I want for my camera. I think I might get 1 or 2 with my next tax return. Actually the one I’ve decided on for sure is a 50mm f/1.8 for portraits. It runs about 150$. I’m sure I get it for less than that with my employee discount. I think I’m going to ask mom to buy me it for my birthday. Which is still months away but I guess I’m not in a huge hurry. Either way I need something that will focus faster than what I’m currently using so I can get better portraits of the kids. Right now they move faster than my camera can focus. I can manual focus of course but that takes time too. I need something fast fast fast! I’m also looking for something to replace my 28-80mm f/3.8-5.6 lens. The focus feature on it is sometimes broken so it’s starting to really piss me off. It likes to get stuck so i have to fight to get it moving again. It can be fairly close to what I already have, though I do want some change so I feel like I’m getting an upgrade. The one I really want is an 18-200mm f/3.8-5.6 but it’s 850$ (not sure what it is with my discount) and I simply can’t afford that. Maybe with my tax return but probably not. So I’m not sure what I’m going to do. I might just have to continue with what I currently have. I guess technically since it’ll be used for still life and landscapes I will have more time to fight with the lens to get it to work properly. But I have a feeling one of these days I’m going to explode over it and no one wants that. Either way I’ll hang on to my current lens because it does have a macro feature on it that’s nice to have. It allows for real close-ups of things. Normally you have to have a separate lens for that. I guess I just need to take this 1 lens at a time and right now I’m going to focus on my 50mm. It will be my next big camera purchase.
Alright, stuff to do. Fishville fish to feed. Castleage monsters to battle. Later guys and gals!