Work was kinda slow today considering it’s the Saturday before Christmas. I was really surprised. I’m not going in until 11 tomorrow. This makes me really happy.

I’ve had really bad heart burn all day. No, I mean really bad. It was radiating around to my back it was so bad. All the damn long day. And just when it went away I ate dinner and it came back. I’m going to have to see a doctor about this whole acid reflux thing.

I watched the new Star Trek movie and the new X-Files movie. First let me say that I use to love the X-Files. I obsessed over the show. I’m no longer obsessed but I figured since we had netflix I might as well watch the new movie. It was decent. I won’t buy it but it was worth watching once. The Star Trek movie was really good. I find myself hoping they make another. At some point I’d like to rent all the shows and movies and watch them, but that’s a time sink best spent when my kids are grown and less demanding. I remember watching Star Trek with my daddy when I was little. I don’t remember most of anything though. I recognized a lot of the names but I couldn’t remember the faces that went along with for most of them. Some were obvious like Captain Kirk and Spock.

I got stocking stuffers for the boys. Mostly candy and hot wheels cars. Some coloring books, crayons and board books for Luke since he can’t eat most of the candy yet. I spent a good 25$ at the dollar store and another 20$ (I was given a gift certificate) at Krogers. I think this will be a good holiday. The boys are getting just enough but not too much. There are a couple of movies I would have liked to have purchased for either Pat or Thomas but they can wait. The boys are getting 1 toy each from Santa and a couple of minor things from me and Pat. I don’t feel they are getting too spoiled this year.

I’m still stressing over the car thing. We have to baby the car for the next 2 months and see how far we can get with it. When it dies the rest of the way we are screwed until we get my tax return in February. I had big plans for my share of the tax return too. I was going to get some desperately needed new clothes. And there is that point and shoot digi I’ve had my eye on. I also need new work pants and new work shoes. Looks like they will just have to wait another year. Really sucks but pants and shoes won’t get me very far if I don’t have a car. I still don’t know how we’d afford payments. I might have to get a second job. Which is all fine and good but people are having trouble finding first jobs much less second jobs. I also don’t know if I can mentally handle the stress of working two jobs at once. I can’t always handle the stress of one. It would be nice if my father found a reliable income. Then he could help out with the bills some and we could afford a car payment. As it is we’ll probably be limited to what we can pay in full at the time of purchase. So much for our mini van.

I’m so sick of being stressed over money. I know that’s my biggest stresser right now. I don’t think Pat and I would be headed for a divorce if money wasn’t an issue. I think we’d be better off if I could regularly get 40 hours a week but during the off season I’m lucky to get 30 hours. Somehow we always make it but it’s always very close.

Luke is turning into a 2 year old. He has this temper to him that is explosive. He’s also a screamer. He doesn’t say what he’s thinking, he screams it. All day long. He’s still sweet and cuddly sometimes though, so we let him live.

I need to have a good photo shoot with the boys. Not just candids but actual posed stuff. With Thomas it’s like pulling teeth though. I’ve never tried posed stuff with Luke before. Should be fun considering he never stays still.

I need to use my camera more period.

I miss Sally. Sally was my snail. Sally randomly died a week or so ago. At least the other snails gave warning. I need to get a new snail. I get 1 free snail every month. Don’t worry, I don’t actually kill a snail off every month. Just every other month. Or something like that anyways.

I have a 6 year old camped out on my living room floor. I let him stay up late because of the holiday break from school and when he asked to sleep in the living room I didn’t have the heart to say no. I think I’m turning into a softy.

Night.