My rages are turning me into an abusive mother. I’m not fully there yet but I’m so scared I will be. It’s my blind rages that really scare me.

I’m working on them, I really am.

But in the meantime I’m no longer allowed to be alone with my children.

And part of me keeps thinking if I were no longer in the picture, they’d be so much better off. I could just walk out the door and not come back.

I’ve already been yelled at twice now for that one.