We all go through life hearing many things about ourselves.  Telling ourselves many things about ourselves.  These little facts.  These little truths.  These little half truths.  These little falsehoods.  These statements that shape how we see ourselves and how we feel about ourselves.  These words are adjectives.  And sadly, all too many are negative. People […]

September Has Been An Asshole, But Really, 2014 Has Been An Asshole

I’m Attempting to Work Magic Here – Help Me?

Legacy of Love My name is Karen Marrs and I am a long time survivor of Borderline Personality Disorder, Bipolar Disorder, General Depression, General Anxiety, and Life. Suicide may be selfish, but for those who have felt that pain, it is hard to see it as such. Robin Williams spent his entire life fighting depression, […]

Level 10

I think everyone has those moments in their life that are on constant repeat even decades later where they are like, “Omg did I really say/do that?” In most cases, I think we blow them out of proportion and we feel this undying mortification or regret for things that we are, in fact, the only […]

They were wrong


This year…  To say I have lost is such an understatement that it’s almost laughable.  Or would be if I wasn’t spending my free time curled up into a tiny, tiny ball crying and raging.  I assure you I’m not laughing through my tears. Some of this loss has been by choice  but too much […]


What do you do with that one secret you can’t tell anyone?  The one no one knows and will never know?  How do you bottle it up?  How do you tuck it away?  How do you keep it out of your own head because you don’t want it there?  How do you find peace and […]

Missed Music Monday

I’ve been listening to music even more than usual lately. Mumford and Sons has become one of my favorite artists and this is one of my favorite songs of theirs. I’m doing ok.


It’s a cold, dark March morning.  The clock strikes 4 and the fierce momma bear leaves the warm nest, headed to the frozen concrete outside the big, brick building.  She sits outside the front door, in the cold, huddled up with many fierce momma bears, thankful the snow storm is hours off.  Small blessings on […]

Body and Mind After Baby

Today I was yelled at by a WIC case worker that I’ve lost too much weight postpartum too fast. By too much weight, she means I’m about half a pound less than I was before I got pregnant. I’m sorry? I didn’t mean to? I pointed out that, that was according to her scale and […]