Husband, Please Don’t Read This

And if you do, please just don’t use it against me.  I need to rant and this is the only ear I have.  I no longer have a best friend.  This is all I have.  So just turn away, or read but keep it to yourself.  Because I’m tired, and I’m stressed, and I just […]

I’m Sorry

I’m sorry I don’t write anymore.  I’m just waiting for the day where my days aren’t measured by the spoonful.  I’m waiting to find the words to explain what the hell is happening to me.  I’m not doing ok, but I’ll live through it.

You’re Not Writing!

Actually, I am.  Just not here.  And it’s mostly poetry. I’m not exactly doing well at the moment.  I mean, I don’t feel depressed and I’m not suicidal or any of that crap.  I just can’t get out of bed most days. Logic tells me that’s depression.  It’s weird being depressed, showing so many signs […]

Him

You got the best of me Rest of me Tried and true test of me I lied for you Cried for you A piece of me died for you I wasn’t good enough Understood enough I knew I’d withstood enough You took your leave that day Slipped away No words of goodbye to say You […]

How To Deal With Someone With Depression

Wait, What?!?! Psych Ward?!?!

So on the morning of September the 19th I reported to work at the hour of 7:45 as scheduled.  I helped open the vault, opened drive thru, processed night deposit bags, all as planned.  And I waited patiently until my boss had time to give me at 9. At 9 I sat my boss down […]

Top 10 Things You Can’t Truly Appreciate Until You’ve Spent A Week In A Psych Ward

1. Not having to choose between scalding and freezing water when showering.  Seriously, they want you showering daily as a sign of mental competence, but the water does not recognize that warm is an option.  I even love hot showers.  Really hot showers.  This was burning. 2. Bath towels larger than a hand towel.  I […]

Self Soothing

These past few weeks I have… Read books I may not have found on my own Watched movies I may not have found on my own Listened to music, some of which I would have found on my own Taken walks at midnight, 1AM, 2AM, 3AM Spent hours hidden away at one of 2 libraries […]

Just Left Of The Right Thing To Do

To say I’m struggling right now would be a clear understatement.  I’m holding my head above water and all, but just barely.  Some days are worse than others.  Some days I want to quit life and just hide until I feel better.  Clearly not a good plan though, so I push forward. When I get […]

Hollow

So rarely am I ever at a true loss for words.  You don’t have to know me long to know I’m happy to talk your ear off about anything and everything.  Rarely does a thought pop into my head that I don’t share, even if it’s simply out loud to myself. So this struggle with […]



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