It All Comes At A (High) Cost

I would argue that cost is gas money, while some might argue it’s my soul. Buddhism keeps popping up in my life.  I’ll read something and go, “Wow!  I could belive in and/or follow that!” I’ll take a silly quiz and it will tell me it’s the best suited religion.  The first highly noted incident […]

She’s Coming Home

When I was 2, my daytime babysitter had another little girl, younger than me, that she also watched (plus a few others) named Samantha.  At the age of 2, I decided that was the perfect name, latched on, and never gave it up. At 4 and a half, my parents made me a big sister.  […]

Midlife Crisis At 27

The Plan The big question:I’ve had various “plans” for school and life starting with computers right out of high school and now psychology. Why would I follow through with this, and none of the rest? Computers was me not knowing at all what I wanted to be based on interests, but knowing the computer field […]


My cousin David wrote a very moving piece about his Grandparents on his blog. You can find the post here. We, of course being cousins, share a set of Grandparents. I direct you to this post for two reasons. One, it’s well written and I think it should be read. It’s enough to make you […]

In Response aka I’m so Happy

Pat’s live journal: Karen and I… there are so many ways I could end that sentence. when we met we were players in someone Else’s game, when we fell in love we were players in someone Else’s game, when we were happy we were players in someone Else’s game. I tried so many times to […]

Blast From My Past

Dave? Mom? Anyone remember this?

My Mom

I wish I could remember that conversation and what I was going thru in my life for me to have answered in that manner. Maybe we can discuss it sometime off-line and you could refresh my memory ?? I’m truely sorry. I sent you for counseling while your dad and I were going thru our […]


I had therapy today. No major break through or anything. We’re still getting to know each other. Well, I know her as well as I’m going to. She’s getting to know me better. We talked about some of the things in the past that have hurt me. How my step father was mentally and emotionally […]

Blue October Speaks To Me

“Hate Me” has the self anger and pain I needed when the Andrew thing was still fresh. But Amazing is a whole other level. Amazing lyrics How am I supposed to breathe?I try to relax. I touch your still frameSo I can watch you closerAnd study the ways I believe I belong to you… to […]

"Come On Baby Light My Fire"

Anyone who has known me for any real amount of personal time knows I’m terrified of fire. Ever since the fireman came to my kindergarten class to talk about fire safety, it’s been a phobia. I spent a week sleeping outside my parent’s room until mom thought to buy me my own fire extinguisher for […]