I would argue that cost is gas money, while some might argue it’s my soul.
Buddhism keeps popping up in my life. I’ll read something and go, “Wow! I could belive in and/or follow that!” I’ll take a silly quiz and it will tell me it’s the best suited religion. The first highly noted incident of “WOWZERS!” was in reading Siddhārtha by Herman Hesse. It just sounded so simply obvious. So over the years I kept meaning to do some research. But it never happened.
Well a week ago, I decided it was time. I wanted to at least see what my temple options were in my area so I could go and learn more in person. Which led me to a problem. What sect? It hadn’t really dawned on me that like Christianity there would be different paths.
So, I did some reading. My first thoughts where that I wanted to follow the path of Gautama Buddha which is a lot easier than I hoped. To put it so it’s easier understood, it’s like saying you want to follow a Christian sect that follows Jesus. Sort of. The point: big figure. There are many Buddahs through history, but he was an important one. So that still left me open with many options. After viewing this chart, I decided Theravada was the one that felt most right. I liked that “Theravada means “The Way of the Elders” in Pali, reflecting the Theravadins’ belief that they most closely follow the original beliefs and practices of the Buddha and the early monastic Elders.” It was after all the original practices that peeked my interest. Should I do some soul searching there and it not hit me as right, I’ll try Zen or another Mahayana subdivision next.
Ok, so realistically, will I become Buddhist? I’m not sure. It’s always peeked my interest as the possible answer to things. It would also be a healthy means of achieving the calm I’ve always searched for. But at the same time, I’m not one for organization and rules when it comes to spirituality so I might continue to have a problem with that. Either way, I could at least see the teachings being used as everyday life skills not unlike that of DBT. Basic meditation is healthy for everyone no matter the walk of life an belief system. And well, I’ve never been able to properly meditate because I always panic I’m doing it wrong. I end more stressed than I was when I began, even when guided through it. Really, it kind of defeats the purpose. So, even if I don’t end this quest with a belief system that guides me through life, maybe I’ll end it with the ability to at least meditate with out the need of an Ativan. That would be something at least.
Oh, and as for my soul? I can’t seem to be bothered to worry about it. If the peaceful ways of the Buddhist monks and followers lead to damnation, then maybe that what I want anyway. Sorry, but that’s how I see it!
Now I just need to find a temple near enough that follows the sect I’m after. And a group that meets in the basement of a local church doesn’t cut it.