As I feel myself slipping into a dark place again, I am for once in my life doing everything I can to head it off. Very constructive, beneficial stuff at that. In place of self destructing, I’m attempting reconstructing. I gave myself last weekend to refuse to leave my bed. Pity party, maybe, but I [...]
Choices
Posted September 22nd 2012 by kmarrsBeing on the side of the well spouse is an option. Being on the side of the sick spouse is another option. But I defy anyone arguing the decision to say “Fuck that noise” and choosing the side of the children. Does this pertain to a specific family? Yes. Does it have to? No. This [...]
I Live With Chronic Pain
Posted May 1st 2012 by kmarrsI also live with chronic fear of being accused of being a drug user and abuser looking for a pain meds fix. I’m not. But I’m also not known for my rational thinking. I have been known to read too many blogs. And I’m well aware those with BPD are prone to addictive personalities. And [...]
To Clarify
Posted April 8th 2012 by kmarrsAt this time, we are NOT stopping my appointments with my therapist and my psychiatrist. We just took me of meds, life is a changing… ending those appointments would be dumb. But they are being scaled back. My meds appointments are in off-meds maintenance mode, I see her every other month. Therapy is headed that [...]
Doctor Thinks Little and Does Less
Posted April 8th 2012 by kmarrsI have a hard decision I have to face. What would be cut and dry with any other doctor is complicated by the fact that my current doctor works for the same company as my mom and that company has a really great reputation. However, he is riding on their shirt tails. I’ve seen the [...]
I Picked A Hell Of A Time
Posted March 24th 2012 by kmarrsFor months I was only on the one med so that if/when postpartum hit I’d be ready. For months I took my Cymbalta because I might get sad around the end of February. February came and went, but the sads never showed their face. Oh I had my moments but they were all life moments. [...]
Serious Side of Life
Posted November 13th 2011 by kmarrsSo, I’m not sure how this will work out, BUT with me not being on nearly as many meds as I usually am, I’m sort of attempting to lose some weight. I refuse to stress about it. Over all, I’m ok with my general size. I’m also really pleased that I actually have a full [...]
