The Game Of Life

House Well, we were in contract.  Papers were to be signed on the 29th.  Keys were to be handed over.  Then the bank that was selling, since it was a foreclosure, made a rather large change to the deal, and we said “hell no” and now there is no house. There was a significant amount […]

It Started

As I knew it would.  I’m actually late in writing this because it started almost exactly after I got to work.  Oh I was so pissed with the timing. Anyway, aside from paranoia I figured it would start.  And Pat, who normally pales about 3 shades in the face If I’m so much as 5 […]

30 Days

It would be at this point in my cycle delay that I would be peeing on a stick.  However, I have been very irregular since I got my tubes turned into bacon.  Usually I’m early but, late is just as possible I’d imagine.  I’m weighing the improbability of me getting pregnant with bacon tubes against […]

The Dates

All the necessary dates we’ve been missing for this move are in. Dad is out this coming Monday.  June 11, to be exact. We close June 29th.  We have to be 100% out of our current apartment July 4th. We were hoping to have the summer to move slowly but it isn’t going to happen […]


The bank kept their word.  We nodded in approval at what was left for us to do.  Nothing we couldn’t do with our own bare hands, the 3 of us. The contract is in place as it was.  Papers will be signed within the month I’d imagine.  The key will be handed over. There is […]

Encouraged, Discouraged

I want to write, but my ability feels stifled by should and shouldn’t. So at some point you just have to say fuck it, and write to keep from bursting at the seams. First, I may be going for a promotion at work. It’s the most basic of promotions: full-time. But, it’s a step up […]

Running Out of Time

It’s silly, I know.  I’m 28 and have many years ahead of me.  Yet, I can’t shake this feeling that I’m running out of time to figure out where I’m going in this current life on Earth. Deciding what I want to study in school is nice and all, but pointless if I’m not actually […]


I think I am finally starting to realize why I haven’t been reading blogs much anymore. So many (not all) of my favorite blogs are written by women who have lost babies/children or who have extremely ill children, who weren’t necessarily born so.  Honestly, they often are some of the most passionate and even well […]

I Picked A Hell Of A Time

For months I was only on the one med so that if/when postpartum hit I’d be ready.  For months I took my Cymbalta because I might get sad around the end of February. February came and went, but the sads never showed their face. Oh I had my moments but they were all life moments.  […]


I’m nervous because Thomas’s party starts in like 30 minutes. Lots of people that will be here in my mom’s house fussing over my boys. My impulse is to throw my boys into the crowd and make a run for it. But I can’t. I have to be social and friendly. Good thing I like […]