About Me & WTBL

Author: kmarrs

Karen has been married to the same man Since April of 2003.  Her oldest son, Thomas, was born in July 2003, her youngest son, Lucas, was born in January 2008, and her baby girl, Samantha, was born in August 2011.

Karen is in remission from Borderline Personality Disorder.  Which is like saying she’s recovered, but no matter how many positive thoughts you think, like cancer, you can never assume BPD is gone for good.

Or, you know, it’s back.

At her worse, Karen struggles to get out of bed, eat 3 meals a day, function as a mom and wife, hold a job, and simply keep up her life and dignity.

At her best Karen was a successful bank teller working her way up in her career with one of the top banks in the country.  She was known through her branch and beyond as being dedicated, hard-working, dependable, creative, personable, reliable, and eager to succeed and help the branch to succeed as a team.

The Karen of 2007 and 2014 looks on in awe.

Karen’s full diagnosis list, none of which is currently in remission though it’s getting “better” is: Borderline Personality Disorder, Bipolar, Generalized Depression, Generalized Anxiety, and Fibromyalgia.  There are a couple other things that could be mentioned but as they are not “official”, we’ll leave them off the list.  It isn’t like that list is lacking.

Karen of 2014 is spending her life working on school and recovery, as well as being the person, mom, and wife she wants to be.

Karen is a geek and finds no shame in this.  She games online, around a table, and live action.  The 10th Doctor is her boyfriend, and he wouldn’t even need his TARDIS, just his brains, quirky personality, bemused grin, and luscious hair.  Rawr!  All of time and space would be a plus, though.  Karen is a brown coat who wants to see Firefly brought back, hopelessly Sherlocked, and a lover of Captain Jack be he a pirate, the brains of Torchwood, or even coconut flavored with a splash of coke.  She grew up watching Star Wars and Star Trek.  The Next Generation will always hold a special place in her over-sized heart.  The prequels 1-3 of the Star Wars franchise are an embarrassment to the industry.  Sheldon Cooper is her personal hero, Leonard is her new best friend, and Penny is getting smarter by the Chinese dinner.  Then one night, in the dead of winter, while Karen was on the brink of sleep, string theory suddenly made perfect, beautiful sense.  Then in the excitement of her scientific discovery, she woke just enough to lose it all and has spent her days regretting this loss to the scientific community.  But with hours spent reading quantum physics for fun, it will all come back.  Finally, it should be noted: Roses are #ff0e0e, violets are #0000a5, and if you understood that, you’re a nerd too!

Karen will write anything that needs said, be it proper or not.  She is a firm believer that life is not to be regretted but instead learned from, and if by sharing those personal life lessons here someone else can benefit, then that is all the drive Karen will ever need to keep writing!

And after all this time, she still maintains she’s difficult.

 

Purpose Of Walking The Borderline

This Blog is here to showcase what it’s like living with Borderline Personality Disorder. This blog is also here to entertain you and to give you a glimpse inside the inner workings of the illness. While I’m targeting people who have BPD and their loved ones, my main goal is to spread the word about this illness. I want it commonly known.

Are You My Target Audience?

  • Are you someone who has borderline personality disorder?
  • Family with someone with BPD?
  • Friends with someone with BPD?
  • Working with someone with BPD?
  • Curious about BPD?
  • Someone with any other mental illness?

The Types Of Posts You Can Expect

My entries can be directly divided into 3 groups. The first is direct research articles that I’ve written on various topics of importance to the illness. The second are stories of antics in my life that while personal, show directly how the illness affects me and those I live with. The third are random stories of the day to day nature that while they won’t be directly related to the illness, they will still show glimpses into my head.

Comment Policy

I invite and encourage any and all questions and comments. Including constructive criticism. However, 2 things will not be tolerated. “Get over it!” without serious advice on how to do so. As well as “You suck!” without a detailed explanation as to why you believe so. All comments are indeed moderated mostly for my benefit so that I don’t accidentally miss them.

Not Always PG, Never Family Friendly

Finally, keep in mind one thing. I will not censor myself on here. You’ll see me post things that you’d never dream anyone would make public knowledge. You’ll see me go off on rants where my language won’t be proper. Just keep in mind that this is indeed the truth behind BPD. Private isn’t always kept as such, and public isn’t always prim and proper.

Now sit back and enjoy the ride!