I haven’t written in a while. Not any real content really. And not for lack of things to say, but for lack of words to give the thoughts form.
Sadly, this post isn’t to say that I found those words. This is simply here as a place holder to let the world know I’m alive and well. My family is well. And while things aren’t 150% perfect, they are damn good.
I have some things to sort out in my head and writing here will be an important part of that process. Just not yet. I’m still giving a touch more time for me to process things before I take to writing. And while that may sound like something horrendous happened, it’s nothing of that sort. I’ve had my feelers hurt. But not by someone I was invested in.
Just someone I wanted to invest in.
And yet, where I lost one. I may have found 3 to take their place. So I think I’ve truly come out ahead. As long as no one else is affected by the lost. And I’m not imagining the gain.
Sorry to sound so cryptic. I just haven’t found the proper words to give everything shape.
Shit on a shingle, I don’t even know if it will be 1 long post a couple shorter ones.
In the meantime, here is my baby at nearly 1. Because oh holy hell, this time a year ago I was having constant contractions but I couldn’t dilate because of scar tissue on my cervix.
Also, she is gorgeous!