Bits ‘N’ Pieces

I’m in the mood to write but I don’t have a solid topic to write about. So I’m just going to piece together some things.

I got my mom to hold 2 rats. It was easier than I expected. She was mostly afraid of being bitten and that they were dirty. She got use to the idea by poking her fingers into the cage to let them nom them. Once I convinced her that rats really are clean animals, it was easy to get her to hold Imp and then Skittles. It seems Skittles is her favorite. He’s the little gray one that we first thought was female until his balls dropped.

I have a confession. The movie Brenda and I are seeing on Wednesday is New Moon. I know, I know. What can I say. I like vampires and I like romances. So a vampire romance… Don’t worry, I think it’s stupid that they sparkle in the sun. I’m not that far gone.

I’m reading Get Me Out of Here by Rachel Reiland. Or I should say rereading. It’s a great true story about a woman who is dealing with BPD. It’s very relevant to what I’m going through. She actually recovers from BPD. Someday I hope to say I’m recovered too.

Work today was good. It went by pretty fast. After work I hung out with mom and the boys. I think it’s going to be a semi regular Sunday evening thing. I don’t spend much time with my mom so it’s a good thing to have the Sunday evening hang out plan.

I’m pulling a 12 hour shift on Tuesday. I’ll get to work at 9am. I’m do maintenance on the C41 (the film processor) until 10am. I’ll work my regular shift from 10am to 5pm. I’ll grab dinner at 5. Then from 5:30pm till 8:15pm I have all sorts of maintenance lined up to do on the 370 (the printer). Then at 8:15pm we have a store meeting going until at least 9pm maybe later.

I think that’s everything. Pat’s home now so I’m going to bed.

Jesse and Luke


This started out as a comment to my mom on my photo blog. She commented on the pics where Luke and our family friend Jesse were sitting on the sofa together. the comment itself was regarding how Luke was looking at Jesse with adoration.

Luke hero worships Jesse. And since he’s still little and cute, Jesse adores him right back.

Jesse has known Luke since the plan to try and conceive was first talked about between me and Pat.

Jesse is teaching Luke, and Thomas too, all sorts of neat things like “fireball”. He’ll be the one to teach Luke all the things Pat and I wish he didn’t know.

Luke was named for Jesse. His middle name is Jay. Jesse’s nickname is J.

Jesse and Luke are Jesse and Luke. Jesse has earned the title Uncle Jesse and Luke loves his uncle Jesse.

What A Good BPD Day Can Look Like

Accomplished

First off we had a good lunch and then I gave the baby a bath. Middle of the day bath is rare for me. Normally I give them weekly before bed on Wednesday. Though I wasn’t home to give him a bath this past Wednesday night so when I discovered my baby was sticky this morning, I knew he needed one soon. I almost had him wait till he was with my mom because I know she enjoys them. But after lunch he was just messy enough that I decided to go ahead and give him one. Who knows, maybe he’ll get two baths today.

I managed to get some quality time in with Pat while Luke played quietly in his crib. He was in a good mood and has a new toy that could hold his attention for hours. So he didn’t even notice where he was and that he was alone for the 10 minutes Pat and I wanted alone.

We cleaned out 4 cages today. The huge cage the rats use now, the boy’s old cage, Gabby’s old cage, and a tiny cage they we use to hold the rats temporarily while their cage is out of commission. The tiny cage is now being used as a food dish. The sides come off and the top can attach to the bottom so it’s basically just a large food dish with a top. It’s kinda hard to explain but the next time I’m taking pictures of the rats, if I remember I’ll get pics of their new food dish. I’m not sure why I think you guys care, but I think it was a good idea on Pat’s part so I’m going to pretend you do.

Oh! Also! Pat had another really good idea! Instead of a hammock he’s going to drill holes in some of the large cardboard tubing I get from work and he’s going to mount them to the sides of the cage. So they’ll have little cubbies off the ground to hide in. I think it’s a cool idea. I’ll still probably make them a hammock at some point just because I really like the idea of it. I love seeing their Little cuddle puddles and I can’t see them when they are in their tubes.

Anyway, back to feeling accomplished.

I’m already half way done with my laundry for the day and it’s only 2:46. I’m really feeling accomplished there. I thought I was more than half done but Pat asked me to wash the sheets. While I’m at it I might as well get the boy’s beds as well. So I’m back down to only half done. Oh well. At least I don’t have to fold sheets. That’s the part that really gets to me. I just have to get them put back on the bed.

If I get the motivation i still have a few more things I want to accomplish, besides finishing laundry. I want to try and get a DBT post posted. I need to sort through TK’s old cloths and pull out 3T pants for Luke. I keep meaning to and just never get to it. I want to get some pics of the rats taken. I also want to get Luke’s picture taken in his new cuddly jammies. He looks so cute in them that I can’t resist.

In fact I think I’m going to chase Luke with my camera now.

A Decision To Be Made – Harder With BPD Indecisivity

I’m toying with selling the clothes Luke has outgrown.

Pros:

  • They are taking up alot of space
  • It would earn some cash to help pay for Christmas, which at this point will be meager

Cons:

  • We want a third baby at some point
  • Restocking the clothes selection will cost more than what we’d actually get for the clothes

I’m thinking about going through craigslist. I’d get more than I would going through a store.

I just don’t know what to do. Hypothetically I’m not agreeing to a 3rd baby until we have another bedroom and a mini van. At which point the money situation would have to be better so we could afford to buy all new clothes. At the same time, I could see any extra money we’re making at the time to be spent on the new van and the extra room, so there is nothing left for clothes.

Am I just being stupid?

On the one hand we don’t even know for sure there will be a number 3. On the other hand why would I sell those clothes knowing full well we intend for there to be a little brother who will need them.

I repeat, am I just being stupid?

Is Pat right: When in doubt wait? It’s not like those clothes are going anywhere I can always sell them later. But those 2 pros are an issue now. And the storage space isn’t getting any bigger.

I really don’t know what to do here.